I’ve spent today’s noumenia cleaning and reorganising Hekate’s shrine, amongst other things. I was going to do rites, but fuck me, I’m buggered now, so I might just leave it at that. That said, it might be the one time I can comfortably light candles without having the fan on, given how cool it is right now. Summer, where are you? I think it’s still stuck in Spring. Not that I’m complaining. 25C is infinitely much nicer than 37C.
Though, it is hard to get into the mood for ritual when you can’t light candles safely, you don’t want the extra heat anyway, and incense is just a pain to bother with even when it doesn’t trigger migraines. Can’t find decent oils to burn that smell good, but can’t justify buying every different brand of frankincense because expensive! The current bottle I have doesn’t smell right, but I can’t find the one I do like, so. /stops burning oil. /even though I miss the beautiful scent of it. 😦
The result of the lack of incense has mostly just made me dream about it, and catch the scent of it on the breeze. It’s really quite infuriating, and all it does is make me miss it so much. I’d love to start burning my frankincense cones again, but I hate migraines more than I care for incense, so. I’d rather not risk it. I think the only way I could get away with it is if I set my Sobek/Heru shrine up in front of the window, so I could set my incense burning right next to the open window to hopefully ventilate it to the extent that I could cope without getting triggered. But that’s a pain in the arse I don’t want to deal with. I like my shrines where they are. Incense isn’t necessary, I know, but ritual isn’t quite the same without it. Damn me and my migraines. 😦
I haven’t been doing a lot, spiritually, apart from my daily devotions to Sobek and Heru. I’m a couple of weeks into Anni’s Season of the Seeker program, which I signed up for because the curriculum looked like just the sort of thing I’ve been looking for, as part of my desire to be more at ease with the land around me. Plus, y’know, sometimes you need to accept that trying to teach yourself these sort of things just isn’t working anymore, not for this, and I’m familiar enough with her teaching style and her practices to want to learn from her. So that’s keeping me busy, but I’m enjoying it.
I’ve also been working my way through reading/rereading Alaric Albertsson’s books Travels Through Middle Earth and Wyrdworking, because for some reason, Saxon paganism resonates with me. Must be an ancestral thing, because the Norse side of things are as indifferent to me as the Irish gods are. That, and the way he talks about Saxon magic and magical techniques makes me think so much about Egyptian heka that I’m kind of inspired now to build a more cohesive magical practice. And, hey, the Saxon runes seem to like me, and they’re far easier to learn than hieroglyphs, so. I figure it’s another tool to add to my magical tool box. And, y’know, old form of my native language, so.
Hekate has a whole shelf to Herself now. I moved the books and reorganised things, so I could have more room for Her, and the rites I do for Her. There’s nothing like not having enough room for everything during a rite, and having to move things and put them on other shelves and on the ground and whatnot. It’s still not a big space, because my shelves aren’t huge, but it’s enough. It’s also half-hidden by shadow, which I feel is appropriate. Her icon, and my images for Hestia and Hermes, are bathed in shadow. But I just think it makes the candlelight work better.
I got two beautiful new little journals for Christmas/my birthday, as well as lots of calligraphy things, which is great. I really want to improve my calligraphic skills over the year, and work on more myths for Sobek. Also! I got a baby cauldron! 😀 I feel like a proper witch now. XD It’s cast iron, and it has a
triquet– triquer-three-lobed Celtic design thingo on it. It’s sitting on Heru’s side, with my mortar and pestle, since Heru is good at potions and healing/doesn’t mind having them there, at any rate. I still want a few more things for Heru’s side of the shrine, though. It still feels a lot like it’s 95% Sobek, with a little Heru squeezed in, and I think Heru deserves more than that. It’s His shrine, too. But that’s not something I can fix any time soon. I’m still looking for the right things for Him.
I’m also hoping I might settle on a ritual format for solstices and equinoxes this year that I like. I’ve got about three competing ones in mind, and I might end up trying them all out to see which one feels the most appropriate for my purposes. I think it will depend on what I feel is my overarching yearly cycle, and how much effort I can be bothered going to. Long ritual is nice, but it does burn me out doing it over and over again. A shorter ritual might be more what I need right now.
I think that’s about it as far as yearly things go. I don’t think I’ll do the Pagan Blog Project this year. I doubt I’ll have the brain capacity to keep up with it. But I’ll try to keep this updated fairly regularly anyway, just so you don’t think I’ve fallen off the edge of the world or something.