I have a Poseidon problem

As such, I need to get this mini shrine kit to Poseidon out of my house a.s.a.p. I’ll even ship it for the cost of postage alone if it means he leaves me be.

Basically, he turned up during meditation a few months ago during one of my High Day rites, and then got pissed when I said no to him after he asked for the sort of intimacy I reserve strictly for the gods I serve as priest. I’ve never encountered him before then, nor had any significant relationship with him. I wasn’t opposed to having a relationship with him before then, but if that’s the way you greet a potential devotee, and then get pissed when they say no, I want nothing more to do with you. (I am still considering cursing his name anyway and having a good ol’ execrating, but we’ll see if this is all it’ll take before we resort to that.)

See, apparently he’s been sending spirits and other shadowy things to Bakhu to attack me. I fought one a while back and did some warding, but apparently it wasn’t enough and Hekate had to cocoon me (Her words) to protect me.  Which explains why I’ve been having so much trouble getting to Bakhu recently, because Hekate’s been stopping me from getting there. And now it’s come to a head and this shrine kit needs to go.

Someone else might just throw it out, and it might come to that, but I thought I’d at least offer it to any Poseidon devotees first. Please spread this around if you know someone who might be interested, and tell them to get in touch if they’d like to have it. Please help me get Bakhu back and stop him invading my space.

That point of no return

Sometimes, the cards have to tell you something three times before you understand what it is they’re trying to tell you. So it was with the omen I took during last night’s High Day ritual. I’ve been mulling over it, and I had a moment of clarity this afternoon when I realised what it was trying to say. The door that’s been closed, the path I can no longer retreat to, is Kemetic. In some ways, it’s a way to firmly keep my focus on my druidic studies, and commit to them. But it’s still an end of one path, and the beginning of another, and I didn’t realise I would even miss it until this evening, when I was writing up my omen notes.

I’ve been feeling that shift for months now, to be honest, but never knew how to articulate it or understand what it was. And now that I know, that’s when it begins to hurt. To miss what I’ve left behind, even though I’m not willing to leave what I’ve now established. This is home, and I didn’t know it until last night, when I sang words to that effect to Hermes. I’ll never stop being Sobek and Heru’s priest, of course. They wouldn’t have made me Their priest if I was just going to leave Them behind. But the rest of those relationships with Egyptian gods have fallen away and we’ve drifted apart. I no longer default to those gods anymore. I default to the Greeks. Which is strange to think about. But there you go. I think this has been in the works for years, but I’m sure Sobek has His reasons for taking me in this particular direction.

I feel like I’ve drifted, or moved, so far from Egypt. It feels like a distant place, far from where I am now. The gods feel unfamiliar, with the exception of Sobek, Heru, Isis, and Wesir, and strange. And I’ve definitely changed, it’s definitely not them. I’ve been calling myself a polytheist, rather than a Kemetic, for a few years now, because any sort of cultural affiliation always seemed hollow and narrowly defined. That, and I don’t work within one single cultural pantheon, so. This just seems to be my place now.

It also helps to reinforce, for me, that sense of foreign gods in a foreign land, that feeling of not being from there, and having to get to know things and how they work all over again. I’ve always felt that to a certain extent, but it’s more explicit now. At least, it feels that way. It may just be a way to shift me into that mindset that’s better suited to connecting with nature spirits and the environment and whatnot, but we’ll see. We’ll see where this new path takes me, and what new relationships I’ll form along the way. I’m sad to leave one thing behind, but this new path feels so right I can’t imagine it not being there. I fell in love with Hekate, with Hermes, with Artemis and Hestia. These gods embraced me and adopted me, even though I felt like I was a stranger to Them. They are my gods now. For how long, I don’t know. But I’ll enjoy the ride while it lasts.

On Hermes and Hekate

Well, I said I was going to write about Hermes, and Hekate, and that time is now, so. Strap yourselves in, this might get long and rambly wooo. My posts generally get a bit long and rambly when I try to explain how I met a god because I started writing A Thing, and there is a lot of backstory to this, so. :D?

*grumbles about how this isn’t even the first time being a god’s scribe is hard u guise*

Also, I think I’ve covered everything, but if I’ve missed anything important along the way, I’m sure I’ll post about it later. :D?

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I am terrible at updates

I really have been meaning to post sooner than now, since I last posted in July, but hey, I got a job, and now I’m working full time, and there is very little brain left for srs updates. Also not enough time to work on Etsy stuff, either, but while I’m working, it’s not really as big a priority as it was before. I do have some prayer beads to do, and I have some boxes to paint, but other than that, I’m letting it sit for now while I slowly make some more stuff.

I had drafted a long and rambly post a couple of days ago covering all the stuff that’s been going on lately, but it just felt too long and disjointed. I don’t like doing posts like that though, because it just ends up info dumping, and then I just do it again three months later, and I’d rather have more focussed posts for people to dig into. I’d rather break these up into separate posts, just so it’s easier to follow. I think this will probably be more of the mundane stuff, and then I’ll do separate posts on Hermes and Hekate, and other religious things I need to talk about.

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