Tonight’s High Day shrine, complete with most of the offerings for the ritual, including the things on the lower shrine. The only things missing are the oil for Artemis, and the juice for the blessing cup, which I’ll put out just before the ritual begins.
I have nfi why it took me this long to connect this time of year with National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo), which I have done every year since 2006. But I perhaps wasn’t looking for the right connections. But that connection has totally reshaped the way I see this time of year, and that helped me get over my ‘omg I hate Beltane’ stuff and focus on what’s actually important to me. Because I really wasn’t looking forward to having to deal with that energy. But now I have NaNo! And I can totally build my High Day ritual traditions around NaNo because wynaut? I do it every year, even though I sometimes don’t have an idea, and don’t always win. I do it anyway. I might do a separate post later on the story I’m working on, since it’s about Hermes, amongst other things.
So tonight’s ritual will be for Hermes, and I’ll get Him to bless my writing tools and whatnot. I’ve been drafting sigils for the past few days, and finalising the hymns. My nails are even painted black because idek. The laptop on the right is a tiny Acer Aspire Switch 10, which I bought earlier in the week for different reasons, and it is adorbs, and it will be scribbled on with sigils (on both the tablet bit and the keyboard, since they separate) because it belongs to Hermes because of course it does. The stuff on the right near Sobek’s stuff is for a spell bag/charm bag/idek. The USB, although old, has a copy of the novel I’ll be working on. Because I’m doing a WIP, obvs. There are other things in there, of course, and I might detail those later in the post-ritual write-up. Continue reading →
Well, I said I was going to write about Hermes, and Hekate, and that time is now, so. Strap yourselves in, this might get long and rambly wooo. My posts generally get a bit long and rambly when I try to explain how I met a god because I started writing A Thing, and there is a lot of backstory to this, so. :D?
*grumbles about how this isn’t even the first time being a god’s scribe is hard u guise*
Also, I think I’ve covered everything, but if I’ve missed anything important along the way, I’m sure I’ll post about it later. :D?
I really have been meaning to post sooner than now, since I last posted in July, but hey, I got a job, and now I’m working full time, and there is very little brain left for srs updates. Also not enough time to work on Etsy stuff, either, but while I’m working, it’s not really as big a priority as it was before. I do have some prayer beads to do, and I have some boxes to paint, but other than that, I’m letting it sit for now while I slowly make some more stuff.
I had drafted a long and rambly post a couple of days ago covering all the stuff that’s been going on lately, but it just felt too long and disjointed. I don’t like doing posts like that though, because it just ends up info dumping, and then I just do it again three months later, and I’d rather have more focussed posts for people to dig into. I’d rather break these up into separate posts, just so it’s easier to follow. I think this will probably be more of the mundane stuff, and then I’ll do separate posts on Hermes and Hekate, and other religious things I need to talk about.
I’ve been meaning to write in here for a while now, but I kept forgetting, or not having the time. It comes with working full time, I guess, though I won’t complain about working at all. Money is good, and a job is good, and I’m pretty sure Hermes had a hand in this somewhere along the line.
My practice is still going, though it’s pared down to just morning and evening devotions, as that’s really all I have the brain for right now. I’ve started washing Heru’s statue in the libation water this week, at His request. It doesn’t really change the ritual very much; I just sit His statue in a flat bowl and pour the libation over Him. He seems to appreciate it. He mentioned something about it washing away the isfet of the night for Him. If I were a better artist, I’d draw some of the images I’ve had during my commute meditations, but I’m just not that good. Not good enough to bring them to life, at any rate.
The only other thing of note is I picked up this tiny copper cauldron at the op shop I work at, and I’ve begun putting some of my change in there every day when I get home from work as an offering to Hermes for keeping me safe on my travels. This was His suggestion, and to use the money to buy Him an offering with it later, or whenever it feels appropriate. I might pick something up for Him on Sunday. I’m going to a local Pagan meet-up, and there is this ridiculous crystal/new age/paganish shop there that I might be able to find something in.
Anyway, I’m going to leave this here, since I am technically at work, and I have things to do today. Like make lots of phone calls. :D?
I wanted to write about this before, but I needed the chance to digest everything from Monday, just to make sure I had everything straight in my head. It’s been a intense Mysteries of Wesir this year, though at least I had some forewarning from Hekate about during the last noumenia. Knowing something is going to happen is never quite the same as going through it, though.
Warnings for epic amounts of woo and UPG, if that bothers you, but I feel the need to document all this here, just so it’s down on paper. Er. Well. On the Intarwebs. You know what I mean. Also, there is discussion of the Pillars of the Naos meditations, and there may be spoilers for those who haven’t finished that first month yet.
The tl;dr version, for anyone who doesn’t want the details is: initiation by gods is A Thing, and now Everything’s Changed, and apparently this makes me a priest now. Or something. IDK. *flails about*
This year’s shrine set up for the Mysteries of Wesir. My seated figure of Wesir sits in the back shrine, covered and concealed. On the offering plate, my smaller figure of Wesir is wrapped and bound with amulets, and lies in a wooden boat. He is surrounded by Anubis, Heru-sa, Aset, Nebthet, and the four sons of Heru.
I’ve been in quite a reflective, introspective mood in the lead-up to this year’s Mysteries. I had wanted to post a bit more, but instead, I’m sitting here in thought, sitting in the silence. A lot of internal stuff is happening that I don’t really feel ready to talk about yet. Perhaps after Yule, idk. I’ve had the shrine prepared for nearly a month. The Equinox came and went with little fanfare, because the Mysteries were upon me now, and I felt they were more important. I do love the Mysteries. I love that quiet, gentle time that it ushers in. And spending time with Wesir is never wasted time.
I always feel like the time between now and the winter solstice in June is a time of cocooning and solitude. It’s a time for re-evaluation and preparation. And I do have a lot to prepare for. Hekate’s Rite of Her Sacred Fires takes place tomorrow, the day of the Night Vigil, and I’m still deciding how to arrange all that. I can’t stay up all night, because I need to be up early for work, but I still want to spend at least an hour in shrine with Wesir, reciting the Lamentations and offering libations.
I’ve been on a bit of a sabbatical, because RL family drama I’m not willing to go into publicly, and I just did not have the brain or spoons to update here. But most of that seems to have calmed down, and I’m able to think a little clearer now. I am behind on TPE posts, and other posts I wanted to make, and they may or may not turn up at some point, we’ll see.
What I sort of hate about The Pagan Experience topics is that they are very Thinky, and I can’t write anything decent about them when I can’t sit and think about those topics for very long. Kudos for that, but it does make it hard to just thrash out a response in an hour on a whim. I need to write all the drafts before I’m able to settle on something I like that isn’t totally shite and just me rambling for a thousand words. (I am also a bit tired of the ‘…and what does $word ~mean~ to you?’ phrasing of the suggested topics, and that might be grating on my desire to sit and thrash out drafts because I cbf ~defining my terms~ before I begin, because this isn’t a fucking university essay, but whatever. I mean, some words just don’t have that sort of broad flexibility in definition, y’know? :/)(This is where my logical grammar pedant is winning out over my Arts graduate’s feelpiniony inclinations.)
Still, at least I am thinking about them when I open my file every so often, and look at the topics, and ponder wtf I am going to say, and then close the file several hours later, having written not very much. I might actually go back and reword some of them, or perhaps find other topics to write about, just so I can make some progress, and get them written. I don’t like leaving this blog sitting idle with no content, and the more I write when I have the time, the more I can plan ahead when I’m feeling shite, so.