Week 8 – Any writing for the letters C or D – Feb. 23 Any writing for the letters C or D- I am keeping this familiar format on week 4 for those who have joined me from the Pagan Blog Project.
Coming Out As Pagan
I am so behind on all my TPE posts, and it’s partly because I couldn’t settle on a topic for this particular week, but anyway. This is on my mind right now, so this is what you’re getting. I can’t say this will be organised; it may end up being a long ramble like most of my posts like this tend to be. Anyway. Have some thoughts on Coming Out As A Pagan, subtitle: Or why I find this concept far less terrifying than coming out as trans* and nonbinary.
I guess I’m drawing on something I’ve seen around the traps lately, and having that feeling like I need to be more visibly Pagan. And I don’t mean that in any sort of obnoxious, in your face, sort of way. I’m a job seeker; I ain’t daft. It’s more subtle, and it’s particularly drawing on a growing sense of embodying the role of a priest, like it’s finally fitting in a way it never did three years ago. I’ve spent my time with Hekate, with Artemis, even with Isis, incubated in this transitionary cocoon, and it’s beginning to feel like that period of preparation is coming to a close.
With it has come a growing sense of wanting to be seen, to be open about my practices, to not be afraid of being seen as Sobek’s priest. To wear that in public, even if it’s not in a way people would understand unless they asked. There will be a ring, and a pendant, and cords, but that’s it. The ring and the pendant are on their way, and there will be some rituals once they arrive to dedicate them to Sobek.
Earth- The word “earth” has multiple meanings. What does it mean to you? How do you use its definitions to support your work?
This was another topic that made me pause, because I’ve never been a very Earth-centred pagan. Perhaps it was why Wicca never resonated with me. IDK. But mostly, I serve the gods first, and that’s what matters to me most of all. So in some way, this is another hard topic to write to, because I don’t really have much to say?
In the last few years, I have been trying to grow that connection with the landscape around me, if only so I can contextualise some of my festivals and my ritual Wheel of the Year, and plant them, and my gods, in the land around me. But, ultimately, it comes back to the gods, not the land. But perhaps it’s more complicated than that. I might have to revisit this later, and maybe talk about that connection, and how intertwined they are for me.
It is hard to forge relationships with the land, though, because I am highly aware that I am an Anglo white person living on land that was stolen by Anglo white people from the indigenous people of this country. When I started exploring druidry, ancestors, and land spirits, I was consciously aware that those ancestral land spirits might prefer it if I ignored them, because I’m not from their culture, and they might be rightly cross at a white person wanting to contact them. (Which I would totally understand.) So the most I do is offer water libations, ask for peace, and leave it at that.