I am in no mood to festival, let alone ‘Mysteries of Wesir’ festival. I’m coming down from Camp NaNoWriMo, in which our cabin was ridiculously successful in winning, I made some good friends, and I did a lot of work on the Pasithea’s City trilogy. The first novel is complete (bar a couple of extra scenes Athene threw at me a couple of days ago), and the second is coming along nicely. After the chaos that was April, I’ve finally got time to relax, and the timing of the Mysteries is weighing on my mind, and whether I want to stick to my fixed date, or use the actual dates, which are three weeks later. But I know I just really need to rest, and perhaps it’s better to gather my energy before tackling the Mysteries.
I think I’ll probably mark the days this week, though, with simple prayers and rituals. I have the house to myself for once and I sort of want to take advantage of that. But I don’t think I’ll do anything complicated. I mean, I pulled The Hooded Man for May (Wildwood Tarot) when I did my year reading, so. I am Taking A Hint and focusing on myself. And maybe I’ll get my shit into gear for a more formal Mysteries later on in May. Because I do want to do it properly, this is half the reason I’m spending all this time putting a Kemetic calendar together. So the festivals are accurate in terms of timing.
I still have a shrine set up, but I think I’m going to do a lot more internal work than anything else. That just feels like the more appropriate path to take, since I have the time to focus on my spiritual work now in a way I haven’t had all month. I might not get the calendar finished properly, but I’d like to get at least all the festivals for the gods listed down so I can begin pulling it all together. So I may not post much about the Mysteries this week, if only because it’ll be a lot more low-key than I’m used to doing. But that’s okay. Sometimes, you need to take care of yourself, and I can honestly feel Wesir hanging around, giving me permission to do that. But I have two days of work coming up, and a house to take care of so we’ll see what actually happens this week.
I swear, I’ve been trying all week to write something up here, but it hasn’t happened. I’ve had thoughts about all sorts of things, but they’ve come to nothing. It’s not a huge issue, it’s not like I have a set posting schedule, but I am trying to keep the posting as regular as I can, just to keep things ticking over.
But things have happened. I have spent the past month working on a short story about Hekate for one of the Covenant of Hekate’s creative projects, and there was the option once it was done to submit it to Askei Kataskei, which I did. And apparently it is good, so there’s that. I’ll let you know more on that later when I have a firm idea of what’s happening with that.
I’ve caught up on my DP High Day stuff. I had fallen behind on my essays and such, and at least I now have all my High Day essays and ritual notes done. Check out my DP blog if you’re interested in following along. I will, at some point, sit down and redraft them into proper essays, and not just collections of notes, but that’s for later. The liturgies I used have also been posted, as well as the essay notes for the May High Day, because if I do it now, then I don’t have to worry about it when the Mysteries of Wesir are taking over my life. All I will have to do is write up the ritual, and then it’s done, and I can worry about Wesir.
I’ve been meaning to write in here for a while now, but I kept forgetting, or not having the time. It comes with working full time, I guess, though I won’t complain about working at all. Money is good, and a job is good, and I’m pretty sure Hermes had a hand in this somewhere along the line.
My practice is still going, though it’s pared down to just morning and evening devotions, as that’s really all I have the brain for right now. I’ve started washing Heru’s statue in the libation water this week, at His request. It doesn’t really change the ritual very much; I just sit His statue in a flat bowl and pour the libation over Him. He seems to appreciate it. He mentioned something about it washing away the isfet of the night for Him. If I were a better artist, I’d draw some of the images I’ve had during my commute meditations, but I’m just not that good. Not good enough to bring them to life, at any rate.
The only other thing of note is I picked up this tiny copper cauldron at the op shop I work at, and I’ve begun putting some of my change in there every day when I get home from work as an offering to Hermes for keeping me safe on my travels. This was His suggestion, and to use the money to buy Him an offering with it later, or whenever it feels appropriate. I might pick something up for Him on Sunday. I’m going to a local Pagan meet-up, and there is this ridiculous crystal/new age/paganish shop there that I might be able to find something in.
Anyway, I’m going to leave this here, since I am technically at work, and I have things to do today. Like make lots of phone calls. :D?
I’ve been on a bit of a sabbatical, because RL family drama I’m not willing to go into publicly, and I just did not have the brain or spoons to update here. But most of that seems to have calmed down, and I’m able to think a little clearer now. I am behind on TPE posts, and other posts I wanted to make, and they may or may not turn up at some point, we’ll see.
What I sort of hate about The Pagan Experience topics is that they are very Thinky, and I can’t write anything decent about them when I can’t sit and think about those topics for very long. Kudos for that, but it does make it hard to just thrash out a response in an hour on a whim. I need to write all the drafts before I’m able to settle on something I like that isn’t totally shite and just me rambling for a thousand words. (I am also a bit tired of the ‘…and what does $word ~mean~ to you?’ phrasing of the suggested topics, and that might be grating on my desire to sit and thrash out drafts because I cbf ~defining my terms~ before I begin, because this isn’t a fucking university essay, but whatever. I mean, some words just don’t have that sort of broad flexibility in definition, y’know? :/)(This is where my logical grammar pedant is winning out over my Arts graduate’s feelpiniony inclinations.)
Still, at least I am thinking about them when I open my file every so often, and look at the topics, and ponder wtf I am going to say, and then close the file several hours later, having written not very much. I might actually go back and reword some of them, or perhaps find other topics to write about, just so I can make some progress, and get them written. I don’t like leaving this blog sitting idle with no content, and the more I write when I have the time, the more I can plan ahead when I’m feeling shite, so.