So I’ve been neglecting my religious stuff for most of the past 12 months or so, bc I’ll be honest, I thought I had just crashed after redoing the bedroom and then got Obsessed with Fandom Stuff and thought I was just On A Break.
Nope. Turns out the big problem was one I just didn’t see, and that was that I’d set up my Sobek shrine wrong. I made it pretty, rather than functional, and I need a shrine to be functional or I don’t use it. And it has legit taken me a year to realise how much I’d fucked it up. That the way I thought I was going to use it turned out to be completely wrong for the way I work. So of coruse nothing ever stuck because I didn’t see how it wasn’t working for me.
Also, I didn’t realise how much I needed daily rituals until I stopped doing them. I mean, I meditated for 45 minutes tonight, and I kept a fairly good focus on Sobek as He repeatedly poured sea water over my head (I am terrible at cleansing, apparently, so I need to start working on that). I haven’t had focus like that for about a year, I think. Maybe less than that, but that feels about right. Like, I’d try to go to Bakhu, and get maybe five mins in and lose focus entirely. That was just my life. I didn’t realise what I was missing was the ritual aspect of it.
I think I have been complicating my practice for a very long time, if I’m honest. Trying to do things that I probably didn’t need to do. All I need to do is go to shrine every night. Doesn’t matter if I use a ritual script. Doesn’t matter if I speak or just say it in my head. Just turn up and be present. That’s all I need to do. Everything else is a bonus. I’d forgotten that. I’d forgotten the peace that comes from standing before my shrine, and really being able to feel the energy from it because it’s a living shrine, rather than a shelf for statues to sit and look pretty.
There’s a lot that He said that I’m still processing, but that’s where I am right now.
Hello! It is nearly Wep Ronpet! Bwee! 😀 I finally got time to clean out all my altars and shrines, because I had been meaning to do that all week. But if the Days Upon The Year have been anything this year, it’s been very Days Upon The Year-y. Very chaotic and things not happening how they planned, etc. And then the Super Blue Blood Moon Eclipse has just thrown everything out of whack. Still! I did see it tonight, and wished very much I’d had a telescope. D:
Anyway. So. I will do Wep Ronpet things tomorrow, but for now, I wanted to post about the #dailyshrine challenge Rev Jan Avende is running over at ADF. Because if you’ve followed this blog for any length of time, you might have noticed that I like building shrines. 😀 So this is right up my alley. I plan to post every day over at instagram, and then write up the posts here each week, so you can see them all and have a bit more writing about why I did them the way I did.
So if you’re interested in following along, my instagram is sashataakheru. Feel free to follow me for shrine pics and cat pics, since that is basically 90% of what I post over there. 😀
Behind the cut, please see my current shrines as they are. I have video to upload tomorrow, and may post more detailed photos then, if anyone’s interested. Also, enjoy the shrines while you can, because by April, they will be totally different, because my room will be totally different. Which is why I’ll do a proper State of the Shrines when that’s all done, so you can see the new set-up then. 😀
Okay, since I meant to do this a couple of weeks ago, but Life etc, and I’ve had a couple of queries today about submissions, I just wanted to let you know that, yes, the book is going ahead, and I am still working on it. I haven’t quite decided on the cover art yet, and there’s a couple of little things I need to fix up, but it’s going ahead.
I am currently compiling the manuscript, so if you still have any last-minute submissions, you’ve got til Jan 31st to get them in. I might be able to extend that by a couple of weeks if you really need it, but I would like to finalise the manuscript by Feb 14, so I can’t guarantee anything I get past that date will make it in. It probably won’t. So don’t hang about if you still want to submit something!
Anyone wanting to make late submissions, please email sobekdevotionalATgmail.com to let me know I need to wait on you, and what you are planning to submit, so I can pencil in where it might fit as I work on finishing the manuscript. This is absolutely your last chance to get something included in the devotional, so please get in touch sooner rather than later.
Gods, it’s been a good, but crazy year. A lot’s happened. Like A LOT. I guess this is what I get for picking ‘courage’ as my word of the year. I can’t remember the last thing I talked about, but it’s been a relatively quiet end of the year, in terms of spiritual stuff. There’s a lot of ongoing internal work, and a lot of plans and other things that are taking time to develop and grow.
Things I have been focusing on lately are self-love and self-care. I don’t know if this would’ve come up had I not been shifting into a femme mood all year, but perhaps. Perhaps this is just the mindset I need to really dig into this work and make it happen. See, the problem with being a well-adjusted and functioning human being is that you don’t think you need self-care because what the hell, you just get by. I’m resilient. I can handle this. And yeah, most of the time, I can. But this is something that goes deeper, and in a lot of ways, it’s hard to express. But it’s part of that thing, you can’t love others if you don’t love yourself, yeah? It’s to do with that.
Okay, so technically, it’s nearly 2018 here in Australia, but I’ll be a bit wobbly with the timing because time zones. BUT STILL.
If you have sent something in and haven’t received a reply (or you asked about something and I never got back to you), let me know!
If you know you are definitely going to submit something but it’s not quite done, send me an email to let me know I need to wait on you!
email@example.com <— I will 100% stop nagging once 2018 hits, but until then, SEND ME THINGS. 😀
I have received so many amazing submissions, and I can’t wait to begin to put this all together for you all, so you can see how amazing it is too. Thank you to everyone who shared and spread the word and sent me things, and helped make this go better than I could have imagined. ❤
“If you do not go out and see the world, you will not know what to bring back to the temple.”
This was part of a longer conversation about priesting roles and How To Temple. I’ve been diving back into the Book of the Faiyum recently, and pondering what all of that means, and how to make sense of it when I don’t have a full translation. And how the Ogdoad is really caught up in all that mythology in a way I hadn’t really appreciated before, and I find that very intriguing.
And so tonight I was pondering the old temples and priesthoods, and how to do that work today. He showed me one of the temples, and we stayed in the outer courtyard. There were a lot of people milling around, making their own prayers. Sobek said it was no good mysticing my way too high into the sanctuary if it meant I forgot what ordinary people brought to Him. And He reminded me that priests back then weren’t full time priests, and that neither should we be, as modern priests. If you need a day job, so be it. And He suggested spending one season a year doing work outside the temple. Do your magic for others, do community-building work, do volunteering, do whatever work comes to you. And then take that back to the temple.
So that’s giving me a lot to chew on right now as I ponder how to wrangle this priesting thing into order and make it fit with everything else I’m being called to do. And I don’t think this is a terrible idea, either. I think it’s a good idea to spend some time each year doing more practical out-in-the-community work for a while to focus on others and see what needs doing, and not just spend all your time up in your head. It’s a grounding thing. So I might have to look at how to make that work for me, because I can see real value in that, if I do it right. But I thought I’d share in case it causes anyone else to have a ponder, too.
So we’re two months in and I’ve got a bunch of hymns, and a couple of things I’m waiting on. I’m really looking forward to putting all this together, so if you’re working on something and plan to send me any submissions, please let me know, so I can get a better idea of what this thing is going to look like as it comes together. I don’t mind if you’re not done yet, but I’d like to begin figuring out how to organise this anthology, so the more I know about what’s coming in, the better.
I’m still working on a couple of mine. I think I might flesh out and re-edit the silly piece of fiction I wrote for my 30 days of Sobek, just for something different, and I’m also working on a Sobek pathworking, for anyone who’s interested in having something like that at their disposal. I might also include some of the prayers I’m writing for my 108 Prayers project, since there’s some nice ones in there already.
I’m still deciding on the essays I want to write. I’m hesitating because I don’t think I’m much of an academic scholar when it comes to Sobek stuff. I just tend to fumble along and find what I can and cobble it together into whatever seems to work. But I do want to write something on the Faiyum at the very least, and I might write something about the Sobek-Heru thing. Though with a Heru devotional in the works as well, I might be able to make a few things for that, too.
Anyway. That’s about where things are on the devotional front. We’ve got four months left until the call for submissions closes, so you’ve still got time to get something together. If you want to chat about your submissions or ask any questions, email firstname.lastname@example.org plz and thank you. ❤