Fiction: Fingerprints

In which, fic for a song that is basically all Hekate’s fault. Written for the Spook Me 2016 Hallowe’en Ficathon. The fic itself is inspired by ‘Fingerprints’, but as I’ve listened to nothing but Sparkadia for the past three months or so, the backstory is drawn from a bunch of their other songs as well; it’s arguably got more from ‘The Great Impression’ than ‘Postcards’, but both albums are there to a certain degree. Written from Hekate’s POV, speaking to the protagonist, who is intersex and genderfluid. -text- is protag’s thoughts, because italics was taken. This is where this year’s NaNo is going to jump off from.

Prompts used: Ghost (creature prompt), image prompt 1, image prompt 2

Word Count Number Sequence: A073240 – Decimal expansion of (1/Pi)^(1/Pi) (x10, to get usable word counts) (because I am a nerd). 0s are treated as new lines/scene breaks, though I couldn’t quite get them to translate as well on WP as I could get them to translate on AO3. Boo

Summary: Someone once told you that Hekate is the catalyst for stripping your life of all the things you should’ve dealt with by now, whether you’ve asked her to or not. You didn’t believe them until it happened to you, when you were trying to run from a mess only partly of your own making, and I decided it was time for you to face your demons at last and chase away the ghosts you can’t seem to banish from your life.

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The road ahead

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So, a lot has changed. The shrines have switched places. This is, arguably, more of a practical move mor than anything else. The physical space I need for my devotional rites for Sobek and Heru is nowhere near as much space as I need for my fledgling witchcraft practice. I think this is actually the first time in sixteen years of pagan practice that I’ve had a permanent witchcraft altar. So there’s that.

I’ve put up a couple of quick videos of each shrine on youtube, for those who want more detail: the Shedety shrine, and the Hekate/Sobek witchcraft altar. There’s a bunch of other shrine videos on there as well, but it’s easier than uploading them anywhere else, since I take them on my phone.

At some point I will stop making new wordpress sites, but I have thrown up another one for my witchcraft blogging stuff because what the hell, and also there’s no room for it here, so. Feel free to follow it if you like: A Sobekatean Grimoire. (There is a lot of punnage in that title, ngl.)

And now that the pimping is out of the way, the tl;dr version is under the cut. Enjoy.

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My portable magic kit

This is going to be a quick post before bed, but I’ve been using this kit now for a month and it feels like it’s time to show it off. I found the wallet at the op shop/thrift shop I work at, and at first, I thought it might make a good portable art kit, so I could draw while I was out, or at the shop or something, but after three weeks of it sitting in my bag, I had a better idea.

There was a particular thing that happened that made me want to have some sort of magical things with me, but I won’t go into details about that. Suffice it to say, this kit is all about protection, cleansing, and banishing, since that’s what I’ve had the most call to use.

The contents are pretty simple. I have two notebooks that I cut to size, and stitched together, where I can write notes or use it for spellwork if I have no other paper to hand. I have five coloured pencils, two lead pencils, and a black pen. I have an eraser (for banishing as well as practical uses), and a sharpener (for focus). There are two train tickets (the yellow pieces of card) that I use as a travel talisman as much as anything else. There is some black cord for binding. A pentacle pendant for an altar tile. A mirror. A pair of d6 dice I use for divination. A vial of frankincense oil. A nail. Finally, six vials containing white salt, black salt, sage, rosemary, hot foot powder, and a purifying herb mix.

There’s only a couple of things I still need to add: replace the black cord with three smaller skeins of red, white, and black thread, and print out a cheat sheet of my dice divination meanings. But other than that, it’s as complete as it’s going to be.

I’ve played around with travel altar kits for a long time, but I’ve never really found them particularly useful. But this seems to do the trick. It’s small enough to fit in my backpack, so I can take it with me all the time, and it’s discreet. I can take it out to lunch with me and write in my notebook, or put together an impromptu healing spell, and it’s fine. Anything more complex is going to get done at home, and since it’s not about deity devotion, but magic, it can be much more tightly focused, and have such small and useful things.

Anyway, it’s time for bed, so I’ll leave this here. If anyone else has a kit like this, I’d love to see them.

New: Portable Shrine Kit – Kemetic Shrine Kit – Offering Table Lid – White and Gold

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I have been experimenting with votive offering tables for a while now, and I think this is the one that is rendered best. Perhaps it is because I drew it with a paint marker, rather than with actual paint. I can see where my strengths lie.

This, and another three boxes, I got at my op shop. $1 each. They’ve scrubbed up nicely, I think. Also, it’s not visible and I forgot to add it to the listing, but the felt backing for the altar tile is black. But anyway. The paint marker is shiny af, and I want to play around with that some more. I like the effect.

This is a small portable shrine kit designed for Kemetic pagans, polytheists, and assorted other Kemetic types. The box itself is made of papier mache, painted white, with gold paint marker along the edge of the lid. The inside is also painted with gold acrylic paint. The box has been varnished to give it a protective, glossy coat to protect it from damage.

The box measures 11cm x 11 cm x 4 cm, or 4.3in x 4.3in x 1.6in.

The lid, drawn on with gold metallic paint marker, is an original design inspired by the ancient offeirng tables, and enables the box itself to be used as a mini altar for ritual, if a small shrine is all you can use.

The design has the hieroglyph for heaven/sky at the top, an ankh in the middle, and the hieroglyph for offering at the bottom. Between them are renderings of pots for offering water or beer, tiny incense burners, the glyph for water, and the two circles represent offering bread. In this way, the offerings represented can be used as votive offerings, perpetually given to the gods if you aren’t in a position to offer physical offerings due to travel or other situations.

It is small and light enough to use as a portable shrine, and there is room to add other items, or to take them out and completely customise what it contains to suit your own needs. It can also be used as a mini shrine on its own, if you do not have much room.

In this kit, you will receive:
– 1 painted box, that fits everything in the kit inside it.
– 1 gold altar tile, depicting an ankh, ma’at feathers, and four stars in black, with a felt back
– 1 small white offering dish
– 4 mini myrrh incense cones
– 2 tealights

Everything will be packaged securely to prevent damage during shipping.

If you’re interested in purchasing this shrine kit, please see the listing on etsy.

New: Tiny Portable Shrine Boxes – Black with Gold Pentagram Design

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I’ve listed these two together, because they are, in essence, identical. They are tiny shrine boxes, with a tealight, and a single frankincense incense cone. These boxes legit came from my op shop and were, like, 40c each. I love working at an op shop. Except when it is 40C/104F, then I do not, because our air-con is terrible. But most of the time, I love it. :D?

Anyway, buy my shrine boxes they are tops.

(…Not literally, obvs. But you knew that, right? >_>)

This listing is for a single tiny shrine box, painted black, with a gold pentagram hand-drawn on the lid with gold metallic paint marker. The box has been varnished to give it a protective, glossy coat to protect it from damage.

There are two box shrines available.

They measure 6cm x 6cm x 3.25cm, or 2.3in x 2.3in by 1.2in. They are small enough to fit in your hand, and contain a tealight, and a single frankincense incense cone. Frankincense is a good all-purpose incense for many gods, as well as for spiritual and magical workings.

No incense burner is included, but there is enough room to fit a small metal one inside. It could also be used to hold any other small trinkets or spiritual items, or used for a magical spell. It would also work as a small altar table in a portable shrine kit, or to hold items on your altar or shrine.

Everything will be packaged securely to prevent damage during shipping.

If you are interested in purchasing one of these boxes, please see the listing here.

On Hermes and Hekate

Well, I said I was going to write about Hermes, and Hekate, and that time is now, so. Strap yourselves in, this might get long and rambly wooo. My posts generally get a bit long and rambly when I try to explain how I met a god because I started writing A Thing, and there is a lot of backstory to this, so. :D?

*grumbles about how this isn’t even the first time being a god’s scribe is hard u guise*

Also, I think I’ve covered everything, but if I’ve missed anything important along the way, I’m sure I’ll post about it later. :D?

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On Being Pagan and Energy-Blind

I feel like I’ve written about this before somewhere, but I can’t find it if it exists at all, so you’ll just have to read about it again, because it’s on my mind. I feel like I might have discussed this in a broader post about magic, but I can’t be sure. In any case, have another post on it. I feel like this is kind of related to the whole godphone/lack of godphone thing, but not really the same thing? I think it’s all the godphone discussion lately that’s made me think about this, and all the work I’ve been doing with elements and whatnot.

I’m also going to post this one, and not just spend hours writing things like this, and then not posting them because reasons. I am terrible at that. I chicken out of posting things all the time, and I feel bad about it. I feel like I shouldn’t be censoring my own blog (except if it concerns stuff I legit can’t talk about). I know I need to work on this. But anyway. I digress.

Firstly, I can’t really do anything these days without Defining My Terms (thank you, Arts degree), so for the purposes of this discussion, I’m using ‘energy-blind’ to mean someone who doesn’t sense energy, or who can’t really feel it around them in a way that others are able to do. ‘Energy’ being not just elemental or magical stuff, but also gods and spirits etc. I don’t know if ‘energy-blind’ is the best way to describe this concept, but it’s what I’ll use. If you know of a better word, I’m all for it.

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A new year beckons

I’ve spent today’s noumenia cleaning and reorganising Hekate’s shrine, amongst other things. I was going to do rites, but fuck me, I’m buggered now, so I might just leave it at that. That said, it might be the one time I can comfortably light candles without having the fan on, given how cool it is right now. Summer, where are you? I think it’s still stuck in Spring. Not that I’m complaining. 25C is infinitely much nicer than 37C.

Though, it is hard to get into the mood for ritual when you can’t light candles safely, you don’t want the extra heat anyway, and incense is just a pain to bother with even when it doesn’t trigger migraines. Can’t find decent oils to burn that smell good, but can’t justify buying every different brand of frankincense because expensive! The current bottle I have doesn’t smell right, but I can’t find the one I do like, so. /stops burning oil. /even though I miss the beautiful scent of it. 😦

The result of the lack of incense has mostly just made me dream about it, and catch the scent of it on the breeze. It’s really quite infuriating, and all it does is make me miss it so much. I’d love to start burning my frankincense cones again, but I hate migraines more than I care for incense, so. I’d rather not risk it. :/ I think the only way I could get away with it is if I set my Sobek/Heru shrine up in front of the window, so I could set my incense burning right next to the open window to hopefully ventilate it to the extent that I could cope without getting triggered. But that’s a pain in the arse I don’t want to deal with. I like my shrines where they are. Incense isn’t necessary, I know, but ritual isn’t quite the same without it. Damn me and my migraines. 😦

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T is for Tools

This was going to be my second T topic, but I can’t think of anything else to write about, so I’ll do this first, and give myself some time to think of another topic that’s not as vague as ‘thinky thoughts’ or ‘transition-y things’, which is about as much as I’ve got right now. Also, I though I’d save you another post on trans* deities because all I really want to write about is Wesir and the Wild Godde, the Horned Goddess’ companion, and the ties between them and such. So that’s a W topic for later.

This also gives me time to think of another T topic, because I am all out of ideas right now, beyond a rambly post about ~transitions~ and such. I still have a P post to catch up on too, and the only reason that isn’t done either is because I also can’t think of what to write about. Too many P topics. D:

So, this post is about my ritual and magical tools. I feel like it’s a bit obvious, in some ways, but I don’t think I’ve ever really done a post like this before, ever, where I’ve kind of gone through and talked about all the tools I use. This will involve Illustrations, so be warned. 😛

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S is for Sobek, Heru-sa-Aset, Priesting, and Other Stuff

I’m sure you’re all very surprised that one of my S topics is SOBEK, Crocodile God of All Things Awesome. 😀 I mean, I started up Per Sebek in His honour eight years ago, and it’s still going, even though the host and format has changed. He wasn’t the first God I worshipped, but one of the first, and as my Father, He holds a special place above all the other Gods in my life.

I’m going to try not to repeat myself here, because I feel like I’ve tl;dr’d myself to death about Sobek and my experiences with Him. I’m also not going to go into a factual history of Him either as I’ve got that covered elsewhere on the site. Which did leave me somewhat bereft of things to talk about. But I suspect this entry would be very different had I written it all a week ago. Now, it’s all changed. Because Sobek is a bastard.

So, instead of a plain old boring entry on Sobek, I’m probably going to ramble on about Sobek and priesting for Him and all manner of other assorted things. Which seems a little aimless, but I do have a point to make, even if this isn’t as particularly as specific as some of my other posts. Then again, last week’s started as an idea about ritual and then just rambled on about God Clans until I finally figured out what my point was, but anyway.

That, and I kind of feel like I need to talk about this at some point, and I have all these Thinky Thoughts about this and what it all means. I’ve been writing about it in my private WP blog, but I think I’ve taken these thoughts as far as that will go, and they are in need of an audience. I feel like now is probably not a bad time to try to articulate the kind of relationship I have with Him, since it’s kind of changed (in a way) and I kind of feel a need to talk about it.

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