I wanted to write about this before, but I needed the chance to digest everything from Monday, just to make sure I had everything straight in my head. It’s been a intense Mysteries of Wesir this year, though at least I had some forewarning from Hekate about during the last noumenia. Knowing something is going to happen is never quite the same as going through it, though.
Warnings for epic amounts of woo and UPG, if that bothers you, but I feel the need to document all this here, just so it’s down on paper. Er. Well. On the Intarwebs. You know what I mean. Also, there is discussion of the Pillars of the Naos meditations, and there may be spoilers for those who haven’t finished that first month yet.
The tl;dr version, for anyone who doesn’t want the details is: initiation by gods is A Thing, and now Everything’s Changed, and apparently this makes me a priest now. Or something. IDK. *flails about*
Week 9 – Knowledge, Wisdom, and Gnosis – Mar 2
What do these words mean to you? How do express these principles in your spiritual work? Is any one more important than the other? Why?
Knowledge, wisdom, and gnosis are all important to my practice. They all inform each other, and I would be poorer if even one was missing. I might not be much of a recon, but I still do my research, because it informs my practice. I still use experience to decide what to do, based on what’s worked for me before. Gnosis is how the gods in old books come alive in my own experience.
Week 8 – Any writing for the letters C or D – Feb. 23 Any writing for the letters C or D- I am keeping this familiar format on week 4 for those who have joined me from the Pagan Blog Project.
Coming Out As Pagan
I am so behind on all my TPE posts, and it’s partly because I couldn’t settle on a topic for this particular week, but anyway. This is on my mind right now, so this is what you’re getting. I can’t say this will be organised; it may end up being a long ramble like most of my posts like this tend to be. Anyway. Have some thoughts on Coming Out As A Pagan, subtitle: Or why I find this concept far less terrifying than coming out as trans* and nonbinary.
I guess I’m drawing on something I’ve seen around the traps lately, and having that feeling like I need to be more visibly Pagan. And I don’t mean that in any sort of obnoxious, in your face, sort of way. I’m a job seeker; I ain’t daft. It’s more subtle, and it’s particularly drawing on a growing sense of embodying the role of a priest, like it’s finally fitting in a way it never did three years ago. I’ve spent my time with Hekate, with Artemis, even with Isis, incubated in this transitionary cocoon, and it’s beginning to feel like that period of preparation is coming to a close.
With it has come a growing sense of wanting to be seen, to be open about my practices, to not be afraid of being seen as Sobek’s priest. To wear that in public, even if it’s not in a way people would understand unless they asked. There will be a ring, and a pendant, and cords, but that’s it. The ring and the pendant are on their way, and there will be some rituals once they arrive to dedicate them to Sobek.
This year’s shrine set up for the Mysteries of Wesir. My seated figure of Wesir sits in the back shrine, covered and concealed. On the offering plate, my smaller figure of Wesir is wrapped and bound with amulets, and lies in a wooden boat. He is surrounded by Anubis, Heru-sa, Aset, Nebthet, and the four sons of Heru.
I’ve been in quite a reflective, introspective mood in the lead-up to this year’s Mysteries. I had wanted to post a bit more, but instead, I’m sitting here in thought, sitting in the silence. A lot of internal stuff is happening that I don’t really feel ready to talk about yet. Perhaps after Yule, idk. I’ve had the shrine prepared for nearly a month. The Equinox came and went with little fanfare, because the Mysteries were upon me now, and I felt they were more important. I do love the Mysteries. I love that quiet, gentle time that it ushers in. And spending time with Wesir is never wasted time.
I always feel like the time between now and the winter solstice in June is a time of cocooning and solitude. It’s a time for re-evaluation and preparation. And I do have a lot to prepare for. Hekate’s Rite of Her Sacred Fires takes place tomorrow, the day of the Night Vigil, and I’m still deciding how to arrange all that. I can’t stay up all night, because I need to be up early for work, but I still want to spend at least an hour in shrine with Wesir, reciting the Lamentations and offering libations.
I’ve been on a bit of a sabbatical, because RL family drama I’m not willing to go into publicly, and I just did not have the brain or spoons to update here. But most of that seems to have calmed down, and I’m able to think a little clearer now. I am behind on TPE posts, and other posts I wanted to make, and they may or may not turn up at some point, we’ll see.
What I sort of hate about The Pagan Experience topics is that they are very Thinky, and I can’t write anything decent about them when I can’t sit and think about those topics for very long. Kudos for that, but it does make it hard to just thrash out a response in an hour on a whim. I need to write all the drafts before I’m able to settle on something I like that isn’t totally shite and just me rambling for a thousand words. (I am also a bit tired of the ‘…and what does $word ~mean~ to you?’ phrasing of the suggested topics, and that might be grating on my desire to sit and thrash out drafts because I cbf ~defining my terms~ before I begin, because this isn’t a fucking university essay, but whatever. I mean, some words just don’t have that sort of broad flexibility in definition, y’know? :/)(This is where my logical grammar pedant is winning out over my Arts graduate’s feelpiniony inclinations.)
Still, at least I am thinking about them when I open my file every so often, and look at the topics, and ponder wtf I am going to say, and then close the file several hours later, having written not very much. I might actually go back and reword some of them, or perhaps find other topics to write about, just so I can make some progress, and get them written. I don’t like leaving this blog sitting idle with no content, and the more I write when I have the time, the more I can plan ahead when I’m feeling shite, so.
Deity and the Divine- This will be the third week’s topic every month and an opportunity for you to share with everyone those who guide, inspire and inform you.
I thought about using these monthly god posts to talk about all the gods I work with, but tbh, I think it’s more interesting to talk about which gods have been most present or on my mind during the month, so that’s what I’m going to do. I think that offers a better insight into my practice and what I do than just rambling on about all my gods.
Earth- The word “earth” has multiple meanings. What does it mean to you? How do you use its definitions to support your work?
This was another topic that made me pause, because I’ve never been a very Earth-centred pagan. Perhaps it was why Wicca never resonated with me. IDK. But mostly, I serve the gods first, and that’s what matters to me most of all. So in some way, this is another hard topic to write to, because I don’t really have much to say?
In the last few years, I have been trying to grow that connection with the landscape around me, if only so I can contextualise some of my festivals and my ritual Wheel of the Year, and plant them, and my gods, in the land around me. But, ultimately, it comes back to the gods, not the land. But perhaps it’s more complicated than that. I might have to revisit this later, and maybe talk about that connection, and how intertwined they are for me.
It is hard to forge relationships with the land, though, because I am highly aware that I am an Anglo white person living on land that was stolen by Anglo white people from the indigenous people of this country. When I started exploring druidry, ancestors, and land spirits, I was consciously aware that those ancestral land spirits might prefer it if I ignored them, because I’m not from their culture, and they might be rightly cross at a white person wanting to contact them. (Which I would totally understand.) So the most I do is offer water libations, ask for peace, and leave it at that.
How do you define “humanity”? What is your contribution to the collective space of humanity? How does your spiritual path support this definition and contributions?
Yep. That’s about how I feel about this topic, ngl.
Yeah, I bet you thought I’d given up on these. Ahahano. Though, I have to admit I have somewhat slacked on the last two weeks, and am only now catching up with this. It’s partly because I have had nfi what to write for this topic, and I am at the point of considering writing about how hard it was to answer the prompt, rather than writing to the prompt itself. Because I can’t bring myself to just write about something else, can I? No, because then it wouldn’t be a challenge. /stubborn Sasha is stubborn. :/
It’s not like I can’t define humanity, or anything like that, it’s just … Every draft I’ve tried to write for this has felt like it was a mess of vague generalisations and ever-so-slightly-concealed rantings, all mixed in with excessive usage of the royal We, as if I can speak for all human beings on this planet. AHAHAHANO. And I just wasn’t happy with that. And now I’ve spent another two hours writing IDK nearly 1k of ranting, and even now, I’m pondering deleting it, but whatever. It’s better than nothing. At least my next post on ‘Earth’ is less grumpy. :D? /tries to find a positive?
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We don’t usually think of Isis in relation to crocodiles or to Sobek, the Crocodile God. Ahh, but wait. As with so much in Egyptian religion, it’s complicated. And there are more Isis-croc connections than we might at first think.
Let’s start with a bit about the crocodile itself. A Nile crocodile can reach up to twenty feet in length—and it doesn’t care what it eats. In addition to their usual diet of fish, the Nile crocodile is happy to feed on birds, wild and domestic animals—and human beings. Estimates are that as many as 200 people a year are killed by crocodiles. Crocodiles catch their prey in huge, toothy jaws and drag it underwater until the struggling stops. It is no wonder Egyptians ancient and modern fear the beast. Perhaps that fear explains why the Nile crocodile was hunted nearly to extinction in the 1940s through 60s. Today, however, they have rebounded and…
With the Lunar festivals, I don’t know if it starts on the New or Full moons. So I put both. I will find a definitive source at a later date.
1-Appearance of Sobek, Lord of Ombos
6-Feast of Sobek
10-Feast of Sobek
11-Festival of Sobek Shedety
12-Feasst of Sobek
18-Feast of Sobek-Ra
20-Feast of Aset-Renenutet, Sobek and Heru-sa-Aset
2-Procession of Sobek to see His Mother Nit
3-Appearance of Sobek, Lord of Ombos
7 to 25-Birth of Sobek, the Great God (19 days)
18-Strife of the Children of Geb
1 to 6-Procession of Sobek, Chief of Summenu, Son of Geb
4-Feast of Sobek
3-Appearance of Sobek, Lord of Ombos
8 to 14-Festival of the Foundation of the Temple of the God Sobek (7 days)
10: Birthday of Sobek
11-Procession of Sobek
3 Peret/Pamenot/February 2 to 9-Festival of the Foundation…