Trans Day of Remembrance 2015

Trans Day of Remembrance 2015//

Water, that they may be cooled.

Incense, that they may be bathed in the scent of the gods.

Flame, that the way may be lit for them.

May the gods and honoured ancestors lift them up,
May Seshat record their names.
May they rise to the heavens in peace.

May they be given a ka,
May they be given a ba,
May they know their true renu,

May they be pure,
May they be pure,
May they be pure,
May they be pure.

Thorn. Again.

Well. I guess that’s the trans* elevation rite done for this year. I pulled Thorn yesterday when I checked my runes to see if I should do the elevation rite yesterday, and when I asked again today whether I should keep going and finish the rite during the next week, I pulled Thorn. Again. So.

I may still do something small for the Trans Day of Remembrance, but it’ll probably be fairly simple. Offering water, lighting incense, reciting the names, etc. But I won’t continue with the elevation rite.

I’d been contemplating it all day, and I had a niggling sense that I should probably stop. General purity issues aside, I just wasn’t sure it was worth continuing this particular ritual, for this particular set of ancestors, while I was menstruating. It felt potentially triggering to those spirits I was trying to help; whether this would be the case, I don’t know, but better safe than sorry.

I’ve moved the shrine to my ancestor shrine. I’ll do any TDOR stuff there. I’ll also check beforehand if they want me to do anything, just to be on the safe side. We’ll try again next year and see if my body behaves.

Skipping tonight’s elevation rite

Menstruation is a bitch. Turned up during the middle of the day. Because of course it did. Good thing I was prepared.

I’ve already closed up Sobek and Heru’s shrine for tonight. I won’t do my daily devotions tomorrow. It’s not a big deal. This is just one of those protocols we’ve developed. I don’t go to shrine on the first day of my period; it’s a self-care thing. After that, I don’t touch any statuary until I’m done bleeding. So no washing Heru’s statue. But it’s alright. It’s a way to manage it that means I can minimise the time I’m away from shrine and not break my daily devotion habits.

As for tonight, I consulted the runes to see if I should do tonight’s elevation rite. I use the Saxon runes, because Woden idk.

I first asked if I should do tonight’s ritual, and I drew Thorn. Definitely a ‘well, you could, I guess, but I’m not sure that’s such a great idea’ vibe. So that’s a no, then.

Then I asked if I should complete the nine days anyway, and I drew Rad. Bring it home, you can’t stop now. So that’s a yes, then.

I’ll check tomorrow to see if I should proceed or not or if they want me to wait another day. One way or another, all nine days will be completed. They just won’t be consecutive days. But that’s alright. It just means more writing time for me tonight. :D

Trans Rite Day 1 + 2

Day 1 shrine, taken at the end of the rite.

First two days done. Nothing spectacular to report. Not overwhelmed. Not drowning. Just tired. But then it is Friday, and I am ready for my weekend, ngl. Also, I am being a bit more cautious in regards to cleansing and covering the shrine, so that might also be limiting it somewhat.

I’m using my desk for the shrine, because space, and not setting things on fire. I’m also packing it up a bit afterwards, so I can pull my curtains across without breaking things.

Pulling two cards from my WildWood tarot towards the end of the ritual. I’m asking some vague form of ‘are there any messages you wish for me to know?’ and seeing what comes up. Yesterday, it was the Knight of Arrows, and the Wanderer. Tonight, it was The Guardian … and the Wanderer. (I am taking a Hint. I don’t know what I’m taking it OF, but repeated cards, ey? That’s a thing.)

I’m doing most of my post-ritual babbling over on tumblr, because it seems easier than fiddling around here, and I want somewhere to record stuff for every night. I may copypaste it back here afterwards, or archive it here somehow, but we’ll see. Mostly I want to record the books I use each time, and the cards I draw, and anything else I find relevant that I want to get down immediately post-ritual.

Anyway. Tired. Need to write. It’s too godsdamn hot. *grumbles about the weather*

Trans Rite Preparations

Trans Rite of Elevation shrine

I’ve spent the last two days putting the shrine together. It’s sitting on my desk this year, rather than my ancestor shrine, because I am not keen on setting things on fire so. Not having use of my desk for nine days is hardly suffering in the grand scheme of things, and I have all the laptops anyway, so it’s not a problem. Of course, all the stuff that was on the tables and windowsill has been displaced, and it’s all over the rest of my room. But I like what I’ve done this year.

It’s a bit of an awkward spot, tbh, because of the curtains, so the photos will have to be laid down flat, and some of the other things moved out of the way, so I don’t wreck the shrine with my curtains. But I think I’m happier with this one. I might still tweak it a bit before I begin, but that’s basically it.

I got the bandannas, the brown pot, and the white taper candles at the back, from the op shop I work at. The rest is my own stuff. And I wanted to have my rainbow boa somewhere, so it’s hanging from my curtain rail. I’ve also got a bi pride bracelet thing (on the bottom right), because of course.

Anyway. BRB figuring out my ritual structure for the elevation, so I can start on time this year, rather than a day late. At this stage, the only prayers I’m thinking of using are the Lamentations I posted yesterday, and perhaps PSVL’s Antinous prayer I used last year. I will also try to record every day this year, rather than just two, like I did last year. Anyway. Expect lots of posting or something. IDK.

The Lamentations of Set and Nit for the Transgender Dead

I think I meant to have this done for last year’s rite, but it somehow never quite got done. So. I finished it. Actually quite a while ago, but apparently I never posted it because why would I do that ahahahaha.

Anyway. Have some Lamentations before the Rite of Elevation begins tomorrow. Use, or not, as you desire. I might do another, longer post about this later, as I have to rush off for work, but I wanted to get this posted now, before I forget, in case anyone wants to use it in their own rites.

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Trans Rite of Elevation

Well, I’ve got my shrine mostly organised. I did some planning at work today on the layout and positioning, and that’s mostly worked out. I’ll post some pics later, once it gets underway. I wanted to get it mostly organised before we’re due to begin on Thursday, because work, and I would not have the spoons to organise the shrine that night as well as put something together. At least now I can concentrate on finalising the liturgy I’ll be using.

Also, I have Made A Tumblr for the rite, since they’re tumblr-based, and I might as well join in there. Whether I use it after that remains to be seen. I have no love nor time for tumblr. And I will probably get around to setting up cross-posting so all my TDoE/TDoR stuff goes there. But if anyone cares, this is me:

Because I am original or something idk.

Anyway. I am way behind on my NaNoing, so I’m going to try to get even 1k done tonight, just so I don’t feel like I’ve been neglecting it for the past two days.

So You Want to Honor The Trans Dead?


I participated in this last year. It was a rough nine days, but worth the effort. Reblogging in case anyone wants to join me again this year.

Originally posted on GODS & RADICALS:

The Transgender Rite of Ancestor Elevation: An Open Letter to the Curious

By Alder Night

Hello, friends! I’m so excited that you’re interested in the Elevation! It’s coming up really soon, and we’d love for you to be involved.

Essentially, the Transgender Rite of Ancestor Elevation (or Trans Rite of Elevation – TRoE for short) is a collaborative nine-day ancestor elevation ritual, styled after rituals in the Espiritismo Cruzada (Blended Spiritism) tradition, which is open. It originated as the brainchild of a small group of trans spirit-workers, myself included, at the Polytheist Leadership Conference in the summer of 2014. The thought was, the trans dead, trans women of color in particular, are a “uniquely traumatized group of spirits who often” die in awful and painful ways after dealing with a lifetime of people trying to deny their humanity. That kind of pain and rage and shame and trauma

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That point of no return

Sometimes, the cards have to tell you something three times before you understand what it is they’re trying to tell you. So it was with the omen I took during last night’s High Day ritual. I’ve been mulling over it, and I had a moment of clarity this afternoon when I realised what it was trying to say. The door that’s been closed, the path I can no longer retreat to, is Kemetic. In some ways, it’s a way to firmly keep my focus on my druidic studies, and commit to them. But it’s still an end of one path, and the beginning of another, and I didn’t realise I would even miss it until this evening, when I was writing up my omen notes.

I’ve been feeling that shift for months now, to be honest, but never knew how to articulate it or understand what it was. And now that I know, that’s when it begins to hurt. To miss what I’ve left behind, even though I’m not willing to leave what I’ve now established. This is home, and I didn’t know it until last night, when I sang words to that effect to Hermes. I’ll never stop being Sobek and Heru’s priest, of course. They wouldn’t have made me Their priest if I was just going to leave Them behind. But the rest of those relationships with Egyptian gods have fallen away and we’ve drifted apart. I no longer default to those gods anymore. I default to the Greeks. Which is strange to think about. But there you go. I think this has been in the works for years, but I’m sure Sobek has His reasons for taking me in this particular direction.

I feel like I’ve drifted, or moved, so far from Egypt. It feels like a distant place, far from where I am now. The gods feel unfamiliar, with the exception of Sobek, Heru, Isis, and Wesir, and strange. And I’ve definitely changed, it’s definitely not them. I’ve been calling myself a polytheist, rather than a Kemetic, for a few years now, because any sort of cultural affiliation always seemed hollow and narrowly defined. That, and I don’t work within one single cultural pantheon, so. This just seems to be my place now.

It also helps to reinforce, for me, that sense of foreign gods in a foreign land, that feeling of not being from there, and having to get to know things and how they work all over again. I’ve always felt that to a certain extent, but it’s more explicit now. At least, it feels that way. It may just be a way to shift me into that mindset that’s better suited to connecting with nature spirits and the environment and whatnot, but we’ll see. We’ll see where this new path takes me, and what new relationships I’ll form along the way. I’m sad to leave one thing behind, but this new path feels so right I can’t imagine it not being there. I fell in love with Hekate, with Hermes, with Artemis and Hestia. These gods embraced me and adopted me, even though I felt like I was a stranger to Them. They are my gods now. For how long, I don’t know. But I’ll enjoy the ride while it lasts.

High Days and NaNoWriMo

October High Day Shrine

Tonight’s High Day shrine, complete with most of the offerings for the ritual, including the things on the lower shrine. The only things missing are the oil for Artemis, and the juice for the blessing cup, which I’ll put out just before the ritual begins. 


I have nfi why it took me this long to connect this time of year with National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo), which I have done every year since 2006. But I perhaps wasn’t looking for the right connections. But that connection has totally reshaped the way I see this time of year, and that helped me get over my ‘omg I hate Beltane’ stuff and focus on what’s actually important to me. Because I really wasn’t looking forward to having to deal with that energy. But now I have NaNo! And I can totally build my High Day ritual traditions around NaNo because wynaut? I do it every year, even though I sometimes don’t have an idea, and don’t always win. I do it anyway. I might do a separate post later on the story I’m working on, since it’s about Hermes, amongst other things.

So tonight’s ritual will be for Hermes, and I’ll get Him to bless my writing tools and whatnot. I’ve been drafting sigils for the past few days, and finalising the hymns. My nails are even painted black because idek. The laptop on the right is a tiny Acer Aspire Switch 10, which I bought earlier in the week for different reasons, and it is adorbs, and it will be scribbled on with sigils (on both the tablet bit and the keyboard, since they separate) because it belongs to Hermes because of course it does. The stuff on the right near Sobek’s stuff is for a spell bag/charm bag/idek. The USB, although old, has a copy of the novel I’ll be working on. Because I’m doing a WIP, obvs. There are other things in there, of course, and I might detail those later in the post-ritual write-up.  Continue reading